Wednesday 1 August 2012

The world of infertility...

So...we've officially been trying to conceive for more than 12 months. The milestone hit me harder than I thought it would. It seems very real now and we're moving forward into the world of "infertility". We have a referral to an IVF clinic and will see the doctor on the 17th August. My husband has to have another semen test before we go but apart from that I am not sure what to expect. I have spoken with a few people that go to the same clinic (even though we have told very few people) and I anticipate that I will have to have a dye test for my fallopian tubes and maybe a laparoscopy to see if I have any endometriosis. It seems fairly clear that I ovulate so I'm not sure if I will be put on clomid but I may be given something to help lengthen my luteal phase and reduce the spotting I experience before my period. I had an appointment with a new acupuncturist this afternoon and it went very well. He was an older Chinese man and did things quite differently to my original acupuncurist. I had to change acupuncturists because I started a new job in the same area as the fertility clinic and didn't want to be travelling in the opposite direction to my original acupuncturist. The Chinese guy spoke like a wise old man and I felt comforted by his slow considered words. He stuck three needles hard into my belly-button- which I had not experienced before- and reported that my abdomen was "stagnant". I am to see him weekly from now on but will finish the herbs and vitamins from a naturopath I visited in the city early last month. A friend of mine who was pregnant when we started TTC is actually pregnant again! I admit that I cried when I heard but I am honestly happy for her- it was just a moment where I needed to have a little pity party for myself. I'm trying to live more in the moment and be grateful for everything I have. The relationship between my husband and I is stronger than ever before and I am so happy for that. If I'm feeling down I try and gain perspective and remind myself that "today is a good day" :-)