Friday, 27 December 2013
Christmas and New Year's celebrations are a particularly tough time. This is the third Christmas I have been hoping to have a nice bump for the family to be excited about over the festive season but unfortunately that has not yet been the case. The end of the year is an acute reminder that another 12 months has passed without a pregnancy- especially with all the cute baby and pregnancy photos dominating facebook posts and Christmas cards . I remember kissing my husband after the New Year's countdown for the past few years and us both wishing that the year to follow was going to be the one when our family would start. This New Year's Eve we will have the same wish but with more experience and heartbreak the hope is tainted with fear and fatigue. 2013 was the year we started IVF: the solution to our problems. There were SO many pregnancies and births this year for friends and family but our two fresh IVF cycles and one FET were unsuccessful. I know this post may sound dreary and self-pitying but reflecting on our journey makes me realise how far we've come and how strong we have been to get through the challenges we've had. One of the best pieces of news I received just before Christmas was the announcement by a friend that she was pregnant after her sixth IVF cycle. She has a similar history of endometriosis/unexplained infertility and went through the same clinic as I did before moving to the clinic we have already made contact with. She has given us some great advice and has made me feel much more hopeful that it will happen for us eventually. So here's to the end of 2013...please, please, please let 2014 be our year!