Life lessons

Life is not a fairy tale. There is not only one heartache followed by happily ever after but rather an ongoing cycle of ups and downs throughout our time on earth. Sometimes these downs extend for long periods of time and you wonder if it will ever end. Infertility is the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. It is the lowest of all the lows in my life so far and I hope there will be no lower point- but there may be. Sometimes when you think life has given you more than enough gut punches it will give you another when you're pleading for mercy. I don't believe that I deserve this anymore than I believe that I don't deserve this. I don't take these hits personally as I believe that life is neither fair nor unfair- it just is...life. This is a down point in my life but I am not alone. I don't believe there is a person alive who has only experienced highs just as I don't believe there is anyone who has only experienced lows. Do I wish I was having babies when all my friends were? The answer is of course more than anything. Unfortunately I have to play the hand I have been dealt and just get on with it. I can let these negative experiences shape me for the better or worse. I can learn from them and hopefully grow as a person. I hope that one day these experiences shape me to be a better mother and that I can be grateful for the lessons I have learnt along the way...