Friday, 31 January 2014

12dp2dt and the torture of the two week wait

The 2WW is both the best and worst time for me. It is a roller-coaster of hope, fear, excitement and anxiety as your body battles the wave of drugs and emotions. For the most part I hate it but the moments of hope are over-whelming and I tend not to let myself get caught up in them for fear of the fall. I've only ever known negative results and have never had so much as a whisper of a second line or a beta result higher than zero. I've always tried to be a positive person but the process of IVF sure tends to change you as a person- particularly in the two week wait. I'm 12dp2dt and in all my other cycles I would have tested by now. For some reason I have no desire to POAS and am starting to wonder whether I can hold out for the clinic phone call. I don't think this is the best idea as the nurses are usually fairly matter of fact about the result and I've found it difficult not to get upset when I already knew it was going to be a BFN so getting the news without warning would be really hard. I may test tomorrow morning- which is a Sunday- so at least my husband will be with me. I'll keep you posted...
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7 comments:

  1. Anonymous31 January 2014 at 22:21

    I have just read your whole journey and am thinking of you and everything crossed that this is the one xx - Sophie

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  2. Trying to conceive a family...1 February 2014 at 00:18

    Thank you so much for your message Sophie. It really does make it easier to know there are people out there thinking of you :)

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  3. LopitaB17 February 2014 at 23:51

    Hi, I understand what you are going through too well.I am going through the exact same thing as IVF #1 failed, currently on 11dp2dt with IVf #2 with no symptoms and no hope :-(. Woke up today feeling empty inside.

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  4. Trying to conceive a family...19 February 2014 at 01:42

    I'm so sorry to hear that you have not yet had your positive IVF cycle LopitaB. Thank you for taking the time to comment and I hope we both have some good news in the near future x

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  5. xsweety3 June 2014 at 19:02

    My 4th ivf cycle n I htp toda 12dp2dt bfn. Suddenly shattered. Cant go thru any more.
    Had a miscarriage in 2nd cycle at 6 weeks. How to handle it. Am already 39

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  6. Trying to conceive a family...4 June 2014 at 00:00

    Big hugs xsweety. I'm so sorry for your BFN. I'd always wait until beta to be sure but I know it doesn't look good. In terms of how to handle it I really wish I could take your pain (and mine) away but it's just one foot in front of the other each day. Finding things to be grateful for and doing things you enjoy. I know it's hard. If this cycle doesn't work for us we'll be moving on to third party reproduction. I tend to cope best by planning again and gaining control of what I have. If I'm sad I don't ignore it but try and feel the pain and then let it to and move on to something I can control. Sending lots of love x

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